Empty

29. And sometimes I feel like a fucking failure.
I haven't achieved all that I've set out to do.
I lost many people along the way.
I can count my friends with only one hand. And I'm not proud of it.
I don't see my dreams up in lights.
I can't hear the applause I used to hear.
I fear I'm reaching my end.
I work for nothing more than what I've been programmed to earn.
I learn from empty books.
Standing up for what I believed in seems like a joke.
Holding my head up high is too much for one to take.
Remembering is all I seem to do these days.
I miss the people I used to know. Good or bad, I crave their company.
Everywhere I turn I hit a fucking wall.
29.
Each day I live on, I feel like a fucking failure.

It's a long time to die

Excuses make it hard to listen.
Controlled speech teaches nothing.
The regulated world blinds our vision.
Necessity prostitutes us.

And I weep for the dreams that have yet to be accomplished
I touch scars left by injustice of yesterday
I scream for the freedom of which we sell ourselves short
I grind my teeth to stop pollution seeping into me
So much has been done
So much time has moved on without us
And yet
Nothing has changed
Traditions have been lost, but isn’t it tradition to lose what we hold so dear to us

A child to a child is a friend
An adult to an adult we are different
We chose colour to separate us
We allow religion to push people apart
And yet when we suffer and bleed
We all look the same
So why have we come to this
What have we done that desperately needs to be amended?
How can we call ourselves people?
If we lift our hands to strike another made in the likeness of us.

A day of persecution.
A month of murder.
A year of revenge.
It’s a long time to die.

RAINBOW'S ENDING

THE GIANTS ARE COMING!

Don't be the last to know when they come out to get you...


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Watch Part 3 of THE GIANTS ARE COMING
on youtube before it's too late.

THE GIANTS ARE COMING (Part 3)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hRswNsGTLLk

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Haven't caught the rest of the trailers??

THE GIANTS ARE COMING (PART 1)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YIWOtU-iU1o

THE GIANTS ARE COMING (PART 2)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ihXx1YeRC8c&feature=related

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Performance Details

RAINBOW'S ENDING - Presented by We Colour People Theatre & Company
Dates: 15th - 18th January 2009
Show times: 8pm show (15th - 18th), 3pm show (17th & 18th only)
Venue: The Arts House, Playden
Tickets: $27 (Adults), $25 (Students), $20 (School group bookings)
Tickets available at The Arts House Box Office
Visit www.wecolourpeople.com for more details

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I can't be a someone

It's been a very long time. So long that I'm not sure if anyone reads this blog anymore or even know it still exist. Maybe it's better that way. Like being alone and screaming your lungs out where no one can hear you. And no one can hear what you've got to say. So no one can get hurt.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm a no one. Sometimes I feel like I'm being treated like that 'no one'. Nobody thinks I can be a someone. Nobody thinks I can even try.

.

2000? what? Who gives a shit anymore....

So.

I've dog gone did it again. I made myself regret. And all that's left is a huge pile of shit stinking excuses. I'm disgusted with what I see.

Every Little Thing - Dishwalla

Let me in
to see you in the morning light
to get me on and all along the tears they come
see all come
I want you to believe in life
but I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
will you find out who you are too late to change?
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
some times

lift me up
just lift me up don't make a sound
and let me hold you up before you hit the Ground
see all come
you say your all right
but I get the strangest feeling
that you've gone away- you've gone away
and will you find out who you are too late to change?

I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
some times

Don't give me up
don't give me up tonight
or soon nothing will be right at all
salvation
will you find out who you are too late to change?

I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted

Constantly

I hate having to think about the future.
I hate having to worry about money or have I saved enough this month to pay all the bills
I hate that I'm not famous yet
I hate the roles I'm given and the fact that good ones are passed to idiots will smaller waist lines.
I hate having to be somebody's maid and wash their socks for each show
I hate having to smile and say everything is alright
I hate my ex-boyfriend for not calling me once to find out how I am
I hate him for not even trying
I hate not having my dad around to lean on
I hate kissing you and never knowing if you'll ever be mine
I hate how the voices in my head taunt me constantly
And I'm tired
Just so tired and scared
I'm so afraid of the future and I don't even want to be around to see it.
One day.
One fine day I'll find the courage to walk off that ledge.